Wednesday, March 16, 2011

This little blog

I don't seem to be going anywhere with it. I really wanted, needed a place to put myself. A place where I could look back and see what was really going on here. But it seems that I'm not very good at keeping up with anything anymore. I don't feel like I have much solid ground anywhere. I don't maintain things very well. I manage to get through the day and collapse into bed and say thank God I made it another day.

I got frustrated because I really don't know how to get the pictures into the posts and stuff like that. But really it's just the way I am. I don't maintain well. Friendships, interests, my marriage, myself. I don't know where it all went. My enthusiasm, sense of adventure, sense of fun and belonging. Why don't I maintain friendship? Why can't I leash up the dogs, round up the kids and go for a hike? When did I get so miserable?